waiting on the final words your heart already knows

life just suddenly came over me. I don't know if it was spending the last hour trying to find baby stuff for josh and michelle or if it was the empty room thats never been empty. But i feel a really bad panic attack coming on and i have no idea what to do about it, or how to deal with it. I'm so far behind in my life and life goals. I feel so lost and outside myself right now. My heart is pounding and my palms are sweating. this is what it is like to feel completely empty